trusting mystery's creativity
(maybe it's the party of a lifetime)
Mystery is at the heart of creativity. That, and surprise.
—Julia Cameron—
I have no idea how to plan for the future.
As I continue to go through all the stuff in my apartment, I have found old poems, ripped from journals, and old intentions scribbled or typed on thin printer paper. The poems are decades old and full of a twenty-seven-year-old’s obsessions and worries.
(Yikes.)
Where I considered going to grad school. For writing.
A witchy newsletter I helped write and print for my university.
Courses on nervous system regulation, healing attachment, and Feri witchcraft.
Among these piles, I recognized my lifelong desire to alleviate mystery by solving it, putting words to it, or conjuring a palatable form or cunning plan.
Until today, I forgot that I dreamed my current realized dreams a long time ago.
(Surprise! Surprise!)
Maybe the absence of knowing is Mystery huddling in a hidden back room, whispering to co-conspirators about what comes next. Giggling about the surprise party of dreams and delights.
Maybe what I thought was quiet was just creativity, gestation, and care.
Maybe I didn’t need to know.
Maybe I just needed to show up, unaware, to the party. Planned and well-timed.
Maybe the stars needed to move a little more.
Maybe creativity was setting the table.
Maybe it’s all happening. Even now.
I imagine a great celebration where your dreams and hopes and desires are invited.
I imagine a long table with endless bubbly drinks, the kind that sparkle.
I imagine a surprise is waiting for you, for all the versions of you that dream and wait and want.
Save the date.
Let yourself be invited.
Maybe you already know, somehow, it’s happening.
In love and magick — Irisanya
PS - A new thing I want to include in these weekly essays is a list of things I love, and that you might love too. I hope you enjoy!
Things I Loved This Week
Morning Walks - I have been resistant to a schedule lately, and it has an impact on me. But I’ve added morning walks back to my life and it feels so good.
How We Feel - This app is great for checking in with myself. Plus, it’s been great to figure out what I’m feeling. Shout out to my partner for sharing it with me.
The Mindful Path to Self-Compassion - I’ve had this book on my bookshelf for a while, and started reading it (finally). It’s reminding me to come back to my body, which is always a reminder I need.
My Old Poetry & Class Notes - I’m decluttering in preparation for my move to Australia and found intentions to go to grad school from 20 years ago. I found notes where I predicted what happened in the last few years. Validation for present me from past me. Maybe you could find something that you need to hear to keep going. I did.
Classes & Events
July 20: Aphrodite, part of the Entering the Temple series, online
August 23: Artemis, part of the Entering the Temple series, online (registration opens in July, email to get on the waiting list)
August 31: One Day with the Norns - w Irisanya & George, Santa Rosa, CA
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I need this affirmation today, thanks 🙏🌀🪶🖤