"I am sick of haunting myself from within like an old house." - Erica Jong, from 'Bitter Herb," Witches
It has always been easier to point at the ways I am haunted, point my finger at the specters lingering in the woods around me, shadows from people, places, and stories.
Watching them from a tiny opening in the drapes was easier, and I did everything I could to stay protected, safe, and quiet enough so they wouldn't come any closer. But they were always so fast, so close,
Too close, no matter how still I made myself.
These hauntings were coming from inside the house. Always. From inside my heart. These ghosts were figures of imagination, internalization, and traumatization. They moved my head in certain directions, and wanted so badly to stay hidden.
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I make friends with ghosts these days. Because I know what it's like to haunt myself. Because I don't want to startle myself into hiding anymore. Because what shakes the lights and flickers the candle can just ask for my attention.
And I will sit and listen. I stop all the haunting.
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What haunts you?
What shadows seem to find you?
How can you recognize the ghosts?
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I think I have been posting Monday Heart Check-ins on my social media platforms since the start of 2022. Each week, I find a quote or write something to help me, you, or anyone else investigate the heart. I started the practice after heartbreak, hoping to find healing in the examination, the questions versus the answers.
I know that healing is a process and not a destination, and my heart is constantly finding itself, knowing itself.
Revealing itself.
And I want to bring these thoughts to smaller spaces, more intimate spaces versus social media. I mentioned this earlier this year, and here is where I figure it out. Or try, anyway.
Thanks for being here. I’d love it if you’d share my work with friends so we can build a community away from the places that seek to use algorithms to force connection. I want something more natural. A friend told a friend.
So, I thank you for connecting with me. I hope the connection can grow and expand to those who want to be here.
xo
Irisanya